School

Lately I've noticed that my attitude has changed in the past month. 

I am happier and also kinda... Moody, I guess.

Ever since school started I saw this as an opportunity to be who be who I really was, and I treat everyone with respect. But some people took my respect and traded it with anger, annoyance, and loss of temper. 

Today was an odd day; we had 2nd period, 4th period, 6th period, all-school lunch, then 8th period. I had already had my 2nd and 4th period, and had to walk halfway across the school to go to my next period. At this point without any brain food, I couldn't really think or concentrate. And basically anything could distract me from learning. 

In 6th period, I am in the back of the class room, with the most talkative girl and her two other friends across and next to her. Let's call the girl who sits next to me Kathy.

Kathy and her friends liked to talk during class and usually I will tell them to be quiet, and shush her once and a while and she would get quieter. Today was an off day apparently for her too because whenever I would shush her or tell her to be quiet she would be a hypocrite and shush me back as she talks to her friends or be all like,"I get it OK? I'm not a little kid and your not the boss of me!" Or say something like,"Ever heard of being nice? I heard you the first time!" At this point, shushing her three times and telling her to politely be quiet so I could focus 10 times, the bomb exploded.

And I snapped.

I called her out kinda of, and told her if to be quiet so I could focus. And this is how the conversation went:

Me: Can you PLEASE just stop your conversation? I can't focus with you guys talking. And we are supposed to be-

Kathy: Why can't you just ignore us and let us talk? I mean, we are talking about something.

Me: Is it related to music because that's what the teacher is talking about.

Kathy: No, because this class is, like, totally boring. And no body at this table really cares about this, rrrrriiiiigggghhhhttt? 

Me: Um, I care about this. But I can't focus with you guys talking so-

Kathy: Whatever. *Goes back to talking with her friends.*

I literally wanted to rip out my hair, so I shot my hand up in the air, and asked to move tables or split the table up. The girls gave me a glare and the teacher said that they need to be quiet, and went back to teaching. I wasent moved, Kathy wasent moved, and everyone was unhappy at my table. Kathy told me that I was such a bully because I told on them and I "never told them to be quiet." 

AHHHHHHHH! 

Ok, wait on moment, I am going to scream in the corner for a minute. 

Ok, I'm back. 

The bell rung, it was lunch time, etc. I passed by there group of friends as I headed to my last class, and I saw Kathy exclaim: "OH! There she is!" And pointed to me. I heard whispers about me and I feel when I go back to school, everyone is going to treat me with unwanted respect. Like treat me as if I was the bully. Well, I hope that doesn't happen.

And if you feel like I'm acting differently, I'm probably having one of my off days. 

It's been awhile since anyone has really blogged, in fact it feels like this website is completly deserted. So don't be shy to blog about school, new thing, martial arts, you could probably blog about your past experiences, memories, or food if you really wanted to. Or you could just rant like I did. : ) 

•Serena•